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Hey

Lately I’ve been doing a lot of self reflection except instead of reflecting it’s more what are you doing and why are you doing this??? It’s tons of fun I highly recommend it, I can feel a ramble coming along and this was not my intention for today’s post but whatever.

I’ve been looking at different bloggers on here and wow. You’re telling me there’s people keeping an aesthetically pleasing theme, posting consistently, and providing quality content all while keeping up with their actual life and responsibilities???? That’s an actual thing?? Which of course lead to me evaluating myself as a blogger. Now I’m not comparing myself to others because that’s b a d but let’s be real, I’m messy. Most days my post are things I’ve randomly written late a night (like this) or just something I’ve put together on the spot (like what you’re reading rn.)

Now content wise, no one knows what I do. Most people give you life updates, product reviews, or tips on life and productivity. While over here, if I’m not endlessly talking about Kpop, I’m rambling about who knows what. Like now

Like I said earlier, I’m not comparing just self reflecting. I feel like I don’t know who I am. Not in like a bad way or I’m lost or something. I just feel like I genuinely don’t know.

For example, I’m smart. I’ve been smart my whole life which means in school I ,say it with me, didn’t try. I didn’t need to put effort into getting good grades, it came naturally. Now? Well let’s just I had the honor of receiving 2 failed test grades this week. spicy

Okay so my two constant moods are that one vine where some guy scares his sister. At first she’s like “ahhh” and then she says “I’m a bad bitch, you can’t kill me.” I feel like most days I’m like ugh I don’t want to and then other days are I’m gonna do everything cause I’m that damn good. Maybe God gave me this looming feeling of dread because if it wasn’t there, I probably would have conquered the world 3 times over already.

I feel like I constantly have things I want to do but I never get them done because I don’t know what to do first. So in the end, I accomplish nothing. If anyone knows the formula for maintaining decent physical and mental health while keeping up with school while staying social while having a hobby while w o r k i n g because I have one of those job things now, please let me know. I’d appreciate it greatly.

Next week hopefully I’ll be answering some questions so if there’s anything you’re just dying to know about me, let me know. K thanks.